"Life out of Darkness" – Beatrice Moore
“Joshua is at the bottom of the pool!” Everything seemed to move slow-motion the moment I heard those words. Alex and my husband, Stephen, jumped into the pool. Alex got to Joshua first and pulled him out. Stephen started CPR on our son immediately…. I froze. I was carrying my one-year-old son, Jonas, when Keri shouted, “Call the ambulance!”
"Resting in Christ amidst the Chaos of being a Mother" – Kay Lim
“When I had my first-born, I planned nursing time, diaper changing time, my showering time, my own mealtime, and my rest time. I thought I had it all together. But reality ruthlessly ripped my plans into pieces and flushed them down the drain….Jesus said, “Come to me, all who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matt 11:28) But how could I find rest if my plans were always hijacked?....Not only was I tired physically, I was drained emotionally too. I struggled with the rest Jesus promised.”
“Introduced to Jesus by a Colleague" - Yaw Kah Weng
“My journey of faith began when I became closer to my colleague, who has since day one told me that in order for all of us to be saved we must have trust in God and in Jesus. Every question and doubt I had about faith, she patiently answered in a way that a non-believer could accept and understand. At that time, I realised that God was trying to speak to me.”
“Pursued by God" - Koh Yee Cheng
“There were many moments over the past five years when I wanted to leave his church. During those bleak moments, I really did not know why I kept coming back. But God pursued me. During those years, there were different people in RHC who reached out to me, read the Bible with me, and kept me in their prayers. I am very thankful to the community here for witnessing the gospel to me.”
“The Grace of God which Saved me from Fear" - Charlene Tan
“God is truly merciful, generous and kind. Even in my fallen state, he met me in my pain and shame, picked me up and found me again a second time, working through two amazing sisters in-Christ…. They helped me recognise how unhealthy the relationship was and prepared me emotionally and physically to choose truth, to walk in the light and to finally put 13 painful years behind me…. They introduced me to RHC and…. God softened my heart and allowed me to savour, appreciate and accept his gospel and his grace…. I feel free and liberated, not bound to good works or the fear of Purgatory…. My identity is bound only to Jesus Christ. He is my Lord and my Saviour and this truth has set me free!”
“Banking my Life on Jesus' Promise" - Dan Pek
“….It became crystal clear that Jesus did not want my moral character, my serving in church or even my monetary giving if I did all these only for my own benefit. Jesus wanted me to give up my life and to spend it on him and for the gospel…. ‘For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? For what can a man give in return for his soul?’ I chose to follow Jesus that night. The outward expression of my inward choice was to revisit the call to full-time ministry I first heard 15 years ago. And that’s basically why I’m pursuing a full-time internship with RHC this year. I’m really looking forward to it!”
“Hope Amidst Illness" - Roselyn Daniel
“The pathology results after the surgery confirmed that it was an early stage of cancer – a rare type of Lymphoma….It was not until I went through my 1st PET scan, that I experienced God’s complete peace about my circumstance. The Lord just needed 30 minutes of my total surrender to bring me a new hope again. Going through the scanner, I was reminded of scripture.… As I lay there…I was reminded of God’s love for me and my whole family.”
“My Test of Money" - RJ
“I started getting on my knees and just saying ‘God please help me’…. Words cannot express the feeling of acceptance I felt, and putting my faith in Christ, I soon began to notice changes in myself and my attitude. Freedom came from surrendering, and I needed to give up control to Christ our Lord…. I had more tests through the year learning to improve home life, changing jobs, and dealing with life on life’s terms without being alcohol dependent, but sober for 15+ months. What a mighty, loving and caring God, he is! God stood by me and with me, always comforting me that he is there, and will not leave me – when many very close to me wanted to leave me during my times of turbulence.”
“My Missing Link to Comprehending the Gospel" - Kay Lim
“I saw clearly that I was a SINNER! I also realized that my bigger sin was that I had been so blind to my own sinfulness! At that moment, I felt deeply sorry for sinning against God and against people. But strangely, more than sorrow and guilt, there was an unspeakable joy and comfort in my heart: I knew that God had already solved my problem of sin and that He accepted me”
“Truly Known by God" - Ella Choi
“Deep down, a part of me knew that I craved for the intimacy of being truly known…. pure willpower and self-control took me nowhere. Through painful life lessons, God taught me to be vulnerable, and to admit to God and man that I am so broken and in need of His grace. It was through God that I found within me the capacity to forgive, and to love vulnerably again.”
“Overburdened by Evil in the World, and in Me" - Daniel Burcham
“He continuously sent people into my life, friends and acquaintances, to remind me of His love, fully exposed and demonstrated in Christ. Eventually I was so burdened by the weight of my own sin and sin in the world around me, that I was willing to listen and respond to God’s call. I could finally let go of my own striving and truly ask God to intervene in my life.”
“Christ's Unrelenting Love" - Eugene Lim
“I asked of God, ‘Why did He help me time and time again? Since He knew everything, He must know that when He helped me, I would simply reject Him and go on my way again - so why help an impenitent sinner?’ I heard a voice in my heart say that day, ‘Because I love you.’ God loved me and He was not going to abandon me. He was pursuing me, calling me.”
“Protected by God in a Car Accident" - Shireen Oo
“…Scars that are visible are signs that healing has taken place in a site of previous injury. Beyond the physical scars I had were the emotional and psychological effects of the accident that I had to work through. For a long time, I couldn’t talk about the accident even to very close friends. But all the while, God was slowly and gently working in me. After a while, I was able to sleep alone in my room, and I could cross the road. I went back to school…. I had and have a God who healed and heals both body and mind.”
“A Completely New Perception of Reality" - Tan Zheng Kang
“…My brother sat me down and challenged me to count how many times I would sin in a day – be it doing bad things, or doing things with selfish intentions. Honestly, I lost count way before the sun went down….On Christmas in 2014, Hwee Chin…invited me to RHC, as she had for many years. By God’s grace during that Christmas, I was introduced to Evangelistic Bible Study conducted by Aik Keong. During the sessions, my previous perception of reality was destroyed…. God showed me how unrighteous and undeserving of grace I was, and how I truly needed Jesus to save me from God’s well-deserved wrath....I am unsure of the exact moment, but I gave my life to Jesus. For the first time in my life, I experienced the most complete, profound, and selfless love of God.”
“Confronted by the King during an ordinary church service" - Ryno Oppermann
Expecting the sermon to be the same, thinking about the kids I needed to pick up afterwards, how long it may take etc. But the Word of God that was read cut deep into my heart that day and quieted me. Here I was, cheeky and expecting to be ‘entertained’, critical of the music, the pastor, the church and whatever. But then the King came to me.
…. I understood the King of king’s immenseness and Glory and Grace. I stood in awe as I became aware of my sin and the way God sees it…. Like Peter I cried out, like many times before, “Lord go away from me for I am a sinful man”, but Jesus spoke strongly but oh, so extremely gently that day: “Come and follow ME. Come to ME. Learn from ME.
“God Heals my Heart and my Son" - Thuha Chow
God was…asking me, what did I trust? Did I trust the doctors? Did I trust my prayers? Or did I trust Him? As I prayed, God opened my eyes to answer this question: whatever happens the next day, should (my son) be ill, or should we walk through a life of terminal illness, I was okay. I was ok, not because of the things that my life was about, but because God was going to walk me through that. I said to my son, “If that’s where God was going to take us, it was ok.” After that, the most amazing peace came over me…. I felt trust and intimacy, not over the things I would walk through, but over who I would walk through these things with…. He’s more than answered the prayer of (my son’s) healing, He’s also answered the prayer of bringing my spiritual walk to a different level.
“Bring me back to His Fold" - Manwin Sidhu
One morning when reading Romans 8 at a coffee spot near my office, I was unable to hold in my emotions. I went back to my car and began to cry uncontrollably. I saw how sinful a life I had been living and was overcome by the fact that Jesus had suffered and had been nailed to the cross for MY sins. Jesus had taken the punishment that I deserved. And all because of God’s immeasurable love and mercy. The Gospel became so real to me that morning that I cried out in repentance; saying sorry to God for falling away from Him, sinning against Him, and asking Him for forgiveness. I couldn’t stop crying and God’s love for me became so real that morning that I felt like a mountain of pressure and anxiety was being lifted off of me.
Instead of me seeking God during troubled times, here was Jesus coming after me and bringing me back into His fold.
“Pursued and Urged by a Loving Father" - Hong Ying Xuan
On my third Sunday at RHC, somewhere in mid-November, as I took the escalator down towards the exit after service, I suddenly became very urgent. This is not something that can wait, I must know more! I turned around and took the escalator back up and saw Pastor Simon. With a heart pounding wildly at my own brazen actions, I approached him. “Pastor, can I know more about Christianity? What do I need to do to become a Christian?” Simon was very busy that week but he took time, precious time out to meet and teach me, helping me take my first baby steps towards God. He gave me a book about the Gospel and introduced me to Ruth. And finally with Ruth, I read the first few passages of the bible in my life…. As I read more and got to know more about Jesus, a sense of relief started to build in me. I can get that second chance, my sins can be forgiven, my prayers can be heard! I wanted, needed, must receive Christ into my life.
“Comfort for a struggling NS-man" - Kamal Sidhu
This also prompted the most earnest crying out to God I had ever done….Looking back later, I think I was also crying out for God to cover the shame I felt at not being much of a man for so poorly dealing with an experience—national service—that everyone around my seemed to be taking in his stride….I earnestly believed like I never had before at that point that the God of the Bible existed, that all the things my mother said and prayed about Jesus caring more for me than anyone else were true, and that he was a true friend and could help me in some way. God rescued me.
“Handing Over Control" - Shauna Tan
“Seemingly knowing that I was gonna fight every piece of theological argument that was coming my way, (God) came into my life…. From unknowingly serving at a Christian orphanage in Batam back in 2012, to being rejected from my choice of university, my brother’s conversion, to forging strong friendships with the Christian girls in my school and seeing in them, what it means to live out life grounded in Christ and the bible. They never failed to treat me with love and kindness, even when I was at my worst. They prayed for me, even when I least deserved prayer. They shared the gospel with me and brought me to Christianity Explored classes. God was working, slowly but surely. He made me realize that I was not in control of anything, and things happened truly by His grace, and not by our own strength.”
“I am not my own" - Lillian Hui
“I struggled with the notion of me being a sinner, I reckoned I was quite a good person, not that bad. But God had more to say. In October… after watching “The Passion of the Christ”, suddenly I started to see replays of scenes of my life, as if watching my own life’s documentary in my mind. As I kneeled in the presence of the Lord, all the scenes of how I have sinned against God, where have I fallen short since young was shown clearly to me. I was devastated and wept heavily in sorrow. I was an utterly hopeless person! By the grace of God I repented and cried out to the Lord to save a wretched person like me. Suddenly I felt a gush of love poured into me; it pierced through my body from head to toe. I experienced the love that is beyond time and space. This is the love, of which Spurgeon said ‘the Lord had plucked me as a brand from the burning’, and which CS Lewis said ‘changed (me) from being a carved stone to being a real man’. My identity has been changed forever.”
“Thought I knew Christ" - Marie Antoniette Abad
“I thought I knew Christ… I knew what He wants me to do but somehow it felt like He was just someone I needed to please, someone I needed to say sorry to. … when I did something right, He should give me this and that…. Around the time I started working, a colleague shared the gospel with me on two occasions and… the second time it really hit home. I was convicted of how selfish and self-righteous I was, how I was living a sinful life fuelled by my own desires…. But God… made a way for us to be saved. 2 Corinthians 5:21 says ‘God made Him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God.’”
“By Faith, Not Works" - Kenneth Qua
“I was a sinner like everyone else and I needed to follow Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. God opened my eyes to see that my salvation was not tied to the circumstances I was brought up in or the actions I took, like going to church regularly or serving on the worship team. But rather, it was about repenting of my sin and putting my faith in Jesus Christ, knowing that the forgiveness of my sins was solely because of Jesus’ death on the cross and His resurrection.”
“The Real Gospel" - Chua Yan Ting
"I believed in the prosperity "gospel".... When things didn't go my way even though I'd prayed fervently, I got discouraged and often blamed myself for not having enough faith. This continued for years, until a message preached at RHC completely challenged my belief. The passage that day was from John 15, about Jesus as the true vine. There was a verse that mentioned: If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.... the promise of getting whatever I wished for came with one condition: that God's Word truly abided in me. But that.... would completely change my desires on earth...."
"I had completely missed the point of the Gospel.... It wasn't about.... prosperity or blessings on earth. Instead of praising God for His finished work on the cross, I had been attempting to make use of Him to satisfy the sinful desires of my earthly life."
“Redeemed from Idols of Human Approval and Grades" - Alyssa Lim
“Nearing the end of my A levels, I found myself questioning the need for that extra ‘A’ on my certificate. Also, for the first time in years of learning music, I really enjoyed just learning more about a symphony and using the creative abilities God has given me, instead of regarding it as just another item on my study list for mere regurgitation.
…Today, I was baptised and became a member of RHC.”
“Grace to One Without Merit" - Daniel Poe
I realized that I never repented of my sins, never loved God and never really believed. God could have chosen to leave me in my sins unto destruction, for “it depends not on human will or exertion, but on God, who has mercy.” (Romans 9:16) But he chose to grant me repentance and faith and there He saved me, not because I have merit, because I have none, but because while I was still a sinner, Christ, who is full of mercy, died for me.
“Actively Pursued by God" - Gary Tan
“About 10 years ago, I moved to London. New job, new country, new weather. All very exciting.… Adventure became worse nightmare overnight…. It was painful because it challenged everything good that I knew about family & friendships. I dulled the pain by doing things I knew I should not have been doing...my life spiraled out of control. The things I used to do I stopped doing, with the exception of going to church. I have no idea why I kept going to church but I did, and to cut a long story short I remember reading the bible while I was waiting for the service to begin one Sunday evening. I was reading chapter 6 in the book of Matthew. “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
That day I felt God say He loves me. It was the start of me discovering God’s immense love. That day God told me that of course he knows my needs, and He knows that I am in pain. He even cares for the flowers and the birds so how can He not know. I still do not know why what happened had to happen but it was not important anymore. What was important is that God did not forsake me.”
“The Power in Progress Who Trusts in Jesus' Work" - Victor Gwee
“But as the months passed, God began to show me the truths in His Word. Slowly, God fanned the embers in my heart, and I began to want to read the Bible seriously. I looked forward to Bible study!
The Bible revealed God to me. I learned that He is the holy and righteous Creator of the entire universe. God had made me in His image, but I was a sinner who had turned away from Him. I also learned from the Bible that God sent his only Son to save me from my sins. Jesus died on the cross to bear my sin, and He rose from the dead in victory over sin and death. I learned from the Bible that by repenting of my sins and believing in Jesus, I can be saved and brought back to God.”
“A Work in Progress Who Trusts in Jesus' Work" - Su Li Tan
“Thankfully….He enabled me to see my deep-rooted sin of pride, which had been masked by layers of self-justification. God lovingly assured me of my worth through timely words from friends, various verses and songs. He reminded me again and again that He loves me greatly, just as I am, flaws and all – so much so that He sent His Son to die for my sins, so that I would be accepted and become His.
I realized that I had to return my gaze to the cross and on what God has done. I had to resume what was more important – building my relationship with God and finding my fulfilment in Him. It was liberating to have a fresh appreciation of Jesus’ saving act and God’s faithfulness.”
“Being Nice and Being a Christian Are Not the Same Thing" - Gabrielle See
“I was overall a pretty good student, doing not too bad in school, going to church almost every Sunday, sitting through Sunday school, hardly asleep during sermons but of course, I did all these without the right intentions. In my mind, though I was hardly conscious of it, I had equated being a Christian to being an overall nice-ish person, and therefore, I guess, doing “good works”. Little did I know that such an outlook means taking God out of the equation.
However, even though I had given up on God completely, God did not give up on me. . .
God, who is so rich in mercy, consistently pursued me all these years . . . after understanding the Gospel and knowing what Christ has done for a sinner like me, I am filled with gratitude for the series of events and the people placed in my life that led me to RHC, as I can now better appreciate God’s assuring, enduring and unchanging love and grace for me.”
“The One Evening that Changed My Life" - Paul Yuen
“That evening, God used him to reshape everything I thought I knew about God and the Bible. He asked questions such as, “How do you know you’re saved?” and “Why do you want to get married anyway?” Through these questions and his follow-up, God opened my eyes to see the glory of Christ. I actually wanted to pray. After that trip, I listened to all the sermons on Romans by John Piper over a few months, through whom God revealed from His word the riches of His grace in salvation and the depravity of my soul. It was during this time of listening to Romans that I truly came to conviction of sin, repentance, and faith in Christ alone.”
“Finding My True Calling and My Life” – Vong Yap
But the important lesson for me was that I needed to be careful that I did not love anything in this world more than I loved God. Matthew 10:37-39 became very clear to me. You know the verses [that] say,
37 “Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.”
God had to bring me to a point where I was willing to give up the things I held dearest - my comforts, my career, my identity, my very self – to be willing to deny them and give them up before he said, ‘OK, now we can move on.’
“Trusting God When Circumstances Change” – Kelly Ng
“For some time, it felt like everything that could go wrong went wrong in school, with my body, and at home. Exasperated, I wanted to give up. Yet, God continued to sustain and minister to me through His people. Those in my home group . . . and other Christian friends kept encouraging me, and challenging me. I think those episodes convinced more than ever that things will fall out of our plans because we are weak. But these aren’t coincidences--God [has] ordained difficulties big and small, and one important reason is so we can yield . . . to Him, trust in His sovereignty, when circumstances around us change.”
“Resting in Wisdom and Love” – Joel Tang
God has been faithful and I always see Him working in my life and in the life of others, even in the little things. Indeed, we have a great God in whom we can trust. We need to fear, but we can rest in Him—in His wisdom and love. "The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” (Psalm 18:2)
“The Light of My Life” – Daniel Tan
“John 1:5 says, 'The light (Jesus) shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it'. I am grateful that Jesus entered history, to shine his light into our broken and dark hearts. From reading the Bible, it became clear to me that I am a sinner, not just because of my actions, but because of my wayward heart and disordered worship. My sins in life made me realise that I desperately need the atoning work of Jesus Christ to be reconciled with a holy God, since I am fully deserving of His holy wrath against unrighteousness. It blows my mind that God would shower His love on us even though we rebel against him."
“Amazed by God's Love” – Chelsea Yan
"At that moment I remembered what I heard in church that weekend, and in my desperation blurted out ‘God, I don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t know if You are real or if I’m just talking to the walls, but if You are real, please help me because I cannot help myself.’ Suddenly I felt an assurance in my heart, that I need not be anxious about what the future brings because there is a God who is not only sovereign, but is also a loving Father who would walk with me. It was the first time in a long while that I managed to walk away without hurting myself, and I was utterly amazed."
“My Identity in Christ” – Winston Wong
"When I think about it, I feel that this is one of the biggest changes that God has worked in me at Redemption Hill Church. My identity and sense of self-worth now, or at least that which I seek now, is that I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I do not want to find my sense of self-worth to be built on any of the talents that God may have given me. I want my self-worth to be built upon the FACT that God loves me so much, that He sent Jesus Christ to die for MY sins.
When I am able to stop and refocus upon the fact of my identity and self-worth in Christ, I find that I enjoy my job much more. I am able to work without that constant sense of worry and self-doubt that may otherwise plague me. I know that even if I fail, I remain the most important person to the most important being in the Universe, the one who Jesus loves. I can tell you, that is a real stress killer."
“Grace at Work in Me” – Charmaine Wong
"Being secure in Christ’s love enabled me to be vulnerable with people, something that I previously had an aversion to and even found abhorrent. Through Redemption Hill Church, God has convicted me that in His wisdom, He desires for me to be folded into community, to be committed to his body in order to live out the Gospel. I’ve been truly built up by His body loving and serving me, encouraging and admonishing me in pointing me to Jesus and I, doing the same for them.
I wasn’t saved in any spectacularly dramatic fashion . . . I can see now it was just God, patiently, lovingly drawing me to him at every stage in my life. I was not saved by my intellect or ability to make a good religious decision, as my pride often tempts me to believe. I am saved by his relentless pursuit of me, by his death and resurrection alone.
It is the same grace that continues to work in me, revealing the areas in my life I need to change, giving me faith and transforming me for His glory. If there were any words that could even sum up this testimony, they would be: in Him, through Him and for Him."
“Perfect Love Knows No Fear” – Min Kam
"The speaker at camp was a church planter, British surfer-dude. He preached on the book of John. He read out John 3:16: God so loved the world that He sent His beloved Son Jesus to come die for us. He explained sin as rebellion against God—me refusing to trust in His ways and me choosing to do things my way to make me feel “good” for a little while. That day I became aware of the sins in my life. Not only was I aware of my rebellious nature against God, but I was also crushed by the fact that instead of punishing me, God sent his son to come die for me so I didn’t have to bear the weight of my sin, and so that I could have a new life and an eternal life with Him in His Kingdom. I saw my need for God and how helpless and horrible I was without Him. I prayed the sinners’ prayer on that day on Easter Sunday April 2004. I prayed for forgiveness telling God I was sorry for rebelling against Him and that I would like to turn back because He first loved me.
In 2006 I felt the call to move home. . . I was terrified that I would fall away from my faith and that I would succumb to external pressures, that I would go home and fall back to my old ways. A dear friend Michelle sent me home with this verse which I have held on to dearly to this day: Deuteronomy 31:8, “It is the Lord that goes before you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Michelle's dad reminded me that in 1 John 4:18 there is no fear in love, for perfect love casts out all fears, because fear has to do with punishment, the one who fears is not made perfect in Jesus. He reminded me I am made perfect in Christ alone and to not fear because I am loved perfectly in Christ.
It has been a little over 10 years since since I accepted Christ and 8 years since I have been home. God has not only walked with me but carried me through a lot of my battles. God has been good and I trust that He will always be good. He never leaves us or forsakes us and has used so many people for His glory, including someone like me that was out to hurt others for my own sake, all those years ago. The Lord goes before you. Perfect Love knows no fear."
“Everything I Had Was Given by Him” – Ivan Yu
“. . .What came next totally changed my views once again. I was at a dinner hosted by a Christian friend. When I thanked her for dinner, she simply said, “This is all God’s glory.” That night, God revealed to me that everything I had was given by Him. God is perfectly holy and righteous. He convicted me and I realized I had to repent of my sins, including my sin of pride.
I saw my need for a Savior. Jesus Christ lived a perfect life, something I could not do. And Jesus died on the cross to save me from my sins. He took on himself the punishment that I deserved for my sin. I believed in Jesus Christ to save me.
I want to end with a verse from Psalm 23 that has encouraged me: Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod, your staff they comfort me.”
“When God Gave Me a Chance” – Brandon Yip
“… Peter was going to betray Jesus and Jesus was just about to die on the cross for his sin and the sins of the world, and yet even then, Jesus says he prays for Peter!
I always thought of it as us praying to God, but [in the Gospel of Luke, chapter 22, verses 31-32] Jesus says that he prayed for Peter, even as he was about to deny him!
I was suddenly confronted with my own sins . . . I thought that for the last year, I was giving God a chance, giving him a chance to prove himself to me. But I realised that I was wrong.
God was giving me a chance . . . and I was actively refusing him for one year. And at that moment I thought: “How could I possibly refuse him?” And I sort of wept on the MRT, which is a pretty weird sight I admit.”
“On Becoming A Christian” – Simon Murphy
“ . . . In that one moment I knew that though I was unworthy and unholy before God, He loved me through Jesus and called me His own. I trusted in Christ and knew that my sin was forgiven in Him.
I remember on that evening consciously understanding that my parent’s faith had now become my own. I was no longer simply the son of Christian parents; I was a Christian. God was no longer just their God, He was my Father, and I was His son!
From them on, a love for God grew in my heart. I found that I no longer wanted to do the things that I had wanted to do before. Sin had lost much of its appeal to me, and where it still was tempting, I now understood it as being grievious to God and so I was glad to turn from it.
God had given me a new heart and longing for him. During subsequent infillings of the Holy Spirit I understood the holiness of God in a greater way!”